During the winter months, my family and I like to set aside time together once a week and watch a family movie together for some extra family time. Sometimes we make it into a big deal and spread out a blanket on the floor and do a family picnic with it. Its a highlight of our week!
My father-in-law had recommended a movie for us to watch called, I’m Not Ashamed. We had never seen it before. It was based on the real life of Rachel Scott, the first victim in the Columbine shootings back in 1999.
I remember when this happened. I was a freshman in high school and was in utter disbelief along with most of the country that this happened at all, especially in a school! I also remember how after that day, things changed within schools. Security and safety were heightened. I wasn’t sure about having my children watch a movie on a school shooting. I didn’t want them to have a fear of going to school. My husband had a different point of view, that the movie wasn’t all about the school shooting but her life before that and how to, no matter what, stand up for Christ! To never be ashamed of your faith.
So we watched this movie that was based off the journals Rachel had wrote.
At first, I got a little frustrated with her. She gave her life to Christ, but still clung to the things of the world and struggled for some time on how to release that hold. Her friends knew she had what they called a “religious experience” and that she was a little different, but still did a lot of what she had before.
But then the Lord reminded me of something. I was the same way in high school. Trying to find my identity in Christ, yet still clinging to some of the things He had redeemed me from.
I think I was frustrated because I understood her. I had, similar to Rachel, returned home from summer on fire for God. Ready to get people saved. But soon people’s responses and the pull of the world can cause the fire to dwindle. It is hard to be a Christian when you are pulled in every direction and the Spirit talks in soft tones, never pushing but wanting you to choose for yourself to follow His direction or not because of His great love for us.
In time, Rachel saw the need for her to completely surrender to Christ. She gave her life completely to Him not wishywashing back and forth. She let Him lead her. In doing so, she lost friends, she got made fun of and it was hard. But it became more important to her to be who Christ had called her to be and to be a witness for Him rather than being a closet Christian. She spoke of compassion and love for one another. Rachel was unashamed to tell others of her faith and what was different about her. And when the shooters came to her and asked if she still believed in God, she spoke with strong conviction, “You know I do.”
By the end of the movie, all of us (except for my three year old) were in tears. Rachel Scott reached people with an impact she didn’t realize she was making when she fully gave herself to the Lord. And her testimony ended up reaching millions. She was unashamed to be who God called her to be.
The best part of this movie was the impact it made on my 6 year old. She now tries to keep a journal, especially when she’s upset, asking God to help her. She found a shirt the other day and we had to get it because it said Change the World with Love.
“Just like Rachel, Mom. We need to change the world with love.”
We are all called to show the love and compassion to our fellow man, just as Christ shows love and compassion for us. We need to be unashamed to share His love with others.
After all, Jesus was unashamed to go onto a cross and pay the penalty for every sin of every person ever. He gave us the ultimate sacrifice. The greatest gift. All so that we could live in a place of freedom. Why should we ever be ashamed to share that with others?
“For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes.”
Romans 1:16 NKJV